mean everything to nothing

better pic of the bangs and the semi-red color that I dyed it yesterday

also, my life is so scandalous (not in a horribly trashy way, but borderline lol) right now and I love it

I just remember sitting in IHOP with my best friends putting us in order from like most reserved/innocent to least innocent and I was #6 out of 6, meaning I was on the verrrry innocent spectrum at that point. If we sat down like that today, without a doubt in my mind I would be #1. So strange. I feel like I’m living someone else’s life, but really I’m doing what I want to do and not apologizing for it. I might make a few mistakes, but I’d rather do what I want to do than do what everyone else wants me to do and have no excitement or risk. This time in my life is so exciting. It’s just amazing how a few days can change everything. I don’t need Jose, he’s scum and doesn’t even deserve to be in the same room as me, that’s how much of a horrible person he is. Looking ahead and living for me and only me from now on!!

I got so dressed up last night only to sit at home and do nothing. At least I got to read a good chunk of The Fault in Our Stars, but I reallllly wanted to go out. My brother claims he called me twice, but I don’t know if I buy it or not. I got one call and it sounded like a pocket dial so I was really discouraged at that point and I figured nothing was happening. Hopefully today will be better. It’s been 6 weeks since I dyed my hair and I want to go red again so I’m going to try to do that today!