mean everything to nothing

Seriously. He came out on a sprained ankle to green iguana the other night and he helped me so much. If it wasn’t for him, I’m pretty sure I would have ended up bawling at the bar. And then afterwards when we were standing outside of morgan’s and he put so much effort into making me feel better because I had a pretty terrible night and could only think about Jose and how he’s the only one that wants me (even though that’s not true- I’ve had 3 people since him who wanted me lol, but it’s not the same without that emotional connection I thought I had with him). Then the next morning I checked facebook like I usually do, and I guess he updated his status the second he got home and said “My sister is an amazing person. I love you Kaitlyn.” I started crying right then and there. I’m so glad we’re so close now, I can’t even imagine not having him in my life. We’re going through a lot, with relationships and with our Dad being sick and I’m so happy to have another person who knows exactly what I’m going through :’)