Too much horribleness going on in my life right now.
Both me and my brother are going through the exact same things in our (ex)relationships and we’re both so not okay but at least we have each other. Weird that he also sprained his ankle like a month after I sprained mine and broke up with his girlfriend a month after I broke up with my boyfriend. This is definitely bringing us together, like, we’re closer than we’ve ever been, but I wish it could’ve happened due to different circumstances.
This whole Regi thing is really pissing me off. Using us hooking up to get back at my ex and getting the both of us in a room together without my prior knowledge or okay just to make him uncomfortable and humiliate him by dangling the fact that he had me right after is just so not cool. I was fucking done with Jose, but then Tuesday night happened and now we’re back to where we were before. So done with boys (and yeah, using the term “boys”, because even though you’re 26, you’re a pathetic excuse for a man- that can actually describe two people hah.).
My dad went to Moffitt Cancer Center today and basically the tumor has gotten larger because he refused to acknowledge its existence for the past 9 months. It’s grown into places they’re not sure they can remove it from and now there are two options: a pill that costs $5,000 a month (to just shrink the tumor a bit and it isn’t FDA approved), which we don’t have and he’s burned so many bridges with people that even if we tried to do some sort of fundraiser, we wouldn’t be able to raise that much, especially not every single month. Option two is chemo, and that’s obviously horrible. And they said his life expectancy at this point is 5 years or under. So that’s great. Pretty much guarantees that he’s never going to walk me down the aisle or know my children (that is, if that’s where my life is headed, of course, who knows). So now, not so sure I want to go all the way to Tallahassee if these are the last years I’m going to have with my dad.
Ugh. In such a bad place right now.
